Total pages in book: 109
Estimated words: 107352 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 537(@200wpm)___ 429(@250wpm)___ 358(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 107352 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 537(@200wpm)___ 429(@250wpm)___ 358(@300wpm)
“Really?”
“Sorry,” he said, crossing to the king-size bed and sitting down. “Come here and tell me what you’re worried about.” When I sat down beside him, he took my hand in his. “This is already better,” he said, turning to kiss the side of my neck.
“I need you to realize we promised your kids a lot of things despite not knowing if you even want to sleep with me.”
“Don’t be an idiot. Of course I want to sleep with you,” he said, lacing his fingers with mine. “But there’s a learning curve there, so you’ll need to be patient.”
“My middle name is patient,” I assured him.
“Lucky for me,” he whispered, then slipped his hand around the side of my neck and drew me close for a kiss that warmed me inside and out. “I’m gonna take a shower. Don’t leave this room.”
“You should say don’t fall asleep. That’s far more likely.”
“I don’t care if you fall asleep, just do it under the covers so I don’t have to wake you up.”
I smiled as he walked into his spacious bathroom.
I made myself get up, then went through my duffel until I found a T-shirt and a pair of sleep shorts to change into. My gun case had been placed on the nightstand closest to the door, probably so I’d see it right away, and I stored it in the compartment underneath, then got under the covers. I tried so hard to keep my eyes open, but his bed was warm and smelled like him, and that was a bit too much comfort. At some point, his warm skin sliding over mine made me moan softly.
“That was a great sound,” he murmured, kissing my shoulder as he spooned me. “And you look really good in our bed.”
“You’re saying our again.”
“Why wouldn’t I? You promised you’d stay, so yeah, everything is ours now.”
Instead of agreeing, I said, “I can’t believe the kids.”
“Why? I knew it was going to go like that.”
“How?”
“They wanted you to stay from the moment they were all with you in the house. I wasn’t even here, but I know that’s how they felt because it was the same for me,” he explained gently, pressing his lips against the back of my neck. “We had a home, and then we didn’t, and now we do again. No one is letting that go.”
“But that’s not all me.”
“You’re the catalyst for the change. Accept the gratitude and the love.”
I didn’t want to argue. I liked him thinking I was responsible for the happiness in his life, so I pushed back against him and let myself be held.
“Holding you is my new favorite thing.”
I was lost in the smoky, gravelly sound of his voice, in the feel of his callused hand stroking under my T-shirt, over my skin. Funny how quickly I was no longer sleepy.
“Nash…can I ask you something?”
“Of course,” I said, trying to concentrate on his words as my focus wandered to his hand running over my abdomen.
“Would you let me lie down on top of you?”
“Is that what you want?” I asked. “Want to feel me under you? Under your power?”
He clutched me tight like my words caused a physical reaction, a jolt of arousal that roiled through him.
“You liked the sound of that.”
“Would you… Could the first time be…” His breath caught.
“Could the first time be you inside me?” Easy to guess where his mind had gone.
“Oh my God,” he rasped, his body twitching like he’d been touched by a live wire.
“Before any of that, though, how about I put my mouth on you, take you down the back of my throat and suck you dry.”
“Oh please,” he moaned, bucking against me, then throwing off the covers and standing up beside the bed.
I rolled onto my back and looked up at him. “What’re you doing?”
“You’re exhausted. I should get out of here and let you sleep.”
“If you walk out of here, you’ll be sorry,” I warned him.
“I don’t wanna go anywhere, but also, I have no idea what to do,” he said hoarsely, and I noted that his dick was poking out of his boxers, already rock hard.
“Your body seems pretty interested in me.”
“All of me—my head, my heart, and clearly my body—is interested in you.”
“That is very good to know.”
“Could you please tell me what to do?”
“Go to the end of the bed.”
He moved quickly, which I loved.
“Now sit down with your feet on the floor.”
My directions were quickly followed, and I rolled out of bed and walked over to him.
“Lie back and tell me how long it’s been.”
“Over two years.”
“Why haven’t you let anyone touch you?”
“I didn’t want just anyone,” he whispered, staring at me. “I’ve never been that way.”
“So before Caitlyn…?”
“Two girls I thought I loved.”
“Why would you want me and no one else?”
“Because you hug me and touch me and remind me to eat and drink water. You take care of my kids and me, and whenever your beautiful brown eyes are on me, I think, What can I do to make him stay with me and never leave?”